Friday, August 10, 2007

Reflective "Thots"

pur·pose [ púrpəss ]
1. reason for existence: the reason for which something exists or for which it has been done or made the purpose of life.

I find that I am in a different place in life than I can ever remember being. I have always had a goal, a vision, a next step and have been somewhat driven to keep moving toward that next thing in life. I'm not sure why....possibly due to a few very big challenges in my life in the last 3 or 4 years, or maybe my age but I find for the first time I can remember I am sort of just maintaining. Is that a bad thing? I'm not sure, it kind of feels like it is but is that just because it is different for me. I am less involved in church activities than ever before. I don't have a plan for what is next in my life. I'm not sure if I am fulfilling the purpose I was made to fulfill in my life.

Now let me stop for a moment and say right now if you are reading this and feel a need to fix my problem please stop reading....I am really just reflecting.

I feel sort of lost trying to make some sort of connection to something or trying to figure out what it is that God wants me to do. I don't want to become complacent but then again maybe God wants me to rest for awhile until He is ready for my next step. Maybe He is going to open some doors I have never even thought of. I do know this for sure that there is a purpose and a plan for my life and I believe it changes with seasons in life. I also believe it is probably best to not try to make something happen (which I have a tendency to do) but to just wait on the Lord until He gives me some sort of guidance or impression. For someone like me that always has been doing...especially in ministry it is very hard just to settle and wait. I know my God is faithful and will in His timing show me what His plan is....and it may be very different than what I think it should be......just thots!

Psalm 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.


Pocahontas hiker said...

I know it is hard for your personality to not have a plan. But for me, I know that you are in a place where you need to be. I always say " the hike up the mountain includes the stops on the way up!"

PrincessK said...

Pocahontas: Thank you for the reminder through a great illustration I can certainly relate too. I am going to write that little saying down and look at it often.

Meems said...

awwww... now you know i wanted to give a shot at fixing. :-)

i can guess though that depending on who reads this post-- you may have several volunteers to gladly help you come up with a purpose.

PrincessK said...

meems: I had a feeling there may be a few fixers out there. Give me a few weeks I may be calling you for the answer. (;

MLM said...

About the hike up the mountain...even when you're stopped, you still know where you're headed, right? Up the mountain? I'm with PrincessK--I like to know where I'm headed, or at least a rough idea of *when* I'll know where I'm headed. :o)